Ok so just to give you guys some background to help you understand this situation, I used to be a total pothead and I would infrequently use other drugs, but once I got put on probation I pretty went into a brief state of alcoholism, but I’m just about over that now. But despite all that i have a 3.7 GPA and i know how to keep things in balance for the most part.

So a few weeks ago i started talking to a girl in one of my classes and I think that she’s one of the most beautiful girls i’ve ever seen. I mean seriously everytime i see her my heart skips a beat, but anyways we started talking and it turns out she’s kind of an alcoholic like I am, and she totally gets me, and after like 3 weeks of knowing her she knows me better atleast as well as all of my best friends.

So here’s some background about her. She broke up with a guy she had been dating for 3 years just a few weeks ago, but she had a thing with another guy pretty soon after but she refused to make it official and date him out of respect for the guy she just broke up with (because i mean you don’t just get another man immeadiatley after dating someone for 3 years).

After like 3 weeks of knowing her i asked her to prom, and she said yes, so I invited her over to get some takeout and just hangout and get to know each other a little better. We ended up like snuggling and holding hands just chillin on my couch for a couple hours, and a few days after that she started being a total bitch, and said that she couldn’t go to prom. So i was really bummed and pretty much fell into a stint of alcoholism and really depressed. I would either be drunk or asleep for the following week. So we just let some space fall between us, and I just asked her to talk to me and she said that we would never be anything more than friends. So after that i pretty much forced myself to get over her, but we decided that we were still going to hang out a bunch because she still gets me better than almost anyone and she said she needs a friend like me. So like the next week she starts like talking all flirty to me, and asks if i like her, and i tell her that im not sure, because she really fooled around with my heart and all but i’m not sure if im over her. So i called her and she said the reason she was such a bitch to me was becasue she liked me so much, and she had so many loose ends that she was like trying to scare me away but then she said she needs a nice guy and that she was sorry for saying that we couldn’t be more than friends becasue it just just flat out isn’t true. So i was about to say “I think we should wait until summer to let anything happen because the end of school ruins people with all the stress, and i really want to get to know you better becasue this isn’t just a fling for me” but right before i was going to say that she stole the words out of my mouth. I told her that i need a simple girl because i have a lot of things going on in my life and I can’t deal with a ton of drama right now, but i still really like her. We hung out the next weekend and we drank an entire bottle of vodka in under a half hour on an empty stomache, but before i was too drunk to remember i kissed her and right after i did, she said she really liked it and said that it was what she had been waiting for, but she asked me if we had a thing and i told her that i like her but she really played around with my heart so i guess i said no for some reason (rememer i was really really drunk) so we go back to her house and i puke all over her tv, but she’s totally cool about it and just thinks it’s really funny. So like a week later i go to hang out with her and a few of her friends that i havn’t met and they are already drunk except one of her friends that’s a girl. So i had to leave early because i have a court ordered 6 o’clock curfew, but right after that she called me and said that her friend is totally hot for me. So after that her friend texts me (we’re going to refer to her friend as julie, and her as dakota) and her friend really likes me. So Dakota tells me to go for her friend because i deserve someone simple, but i say that i can’t becasue i like her way to much, but still she says to go for it. So i text Julie back and just start talking to her, and after like a week she’s pretty much obsessed with me, and i don’t really have any feelings for her, but just spur of the moment i kind of asked her out, but the next day i took her up to a lake thats in the mountains and we hung out, and i kissed her to see if i felt anything but Dakota was on my mind the whole time. So i said i’m sorry this isn’t going to work right now because i barely know you and i’m still hung up on a lot of things but your a really sweet, cool, girl so i’m not going to give you any bullshit, i just want to be your friend right now. And Dakota went on a date with a guy she didn’t like and she said she was just going to be thinking about me the whole time, but i’m really not sure what to do