My father is a recovering alcoholic drug addict of 17 years. I have an older sister that has 2 children that my mother is raising because my sister abuses meth. I have an older brother who has had 2 DUIs before his 21st birthday && I have been following in their footsteps. It started when I was 14 with drinking then when I was 16 I began smoking marijuana. Now I smoke, drink, && do coke on a daily basis. I dont want to end up like my sister && brother, but I am afraid I will. I am being evicted from my apartment because of my habits && I have also neglected speeding tickets, && court ordered NA && Community Service. My life is heading the WRONG way && I desprately want to change it. I want my family to be proud of me. I come from a pretty wealthy family && I want to go to rehab, but I would need them to pay for it. My parents know I smoke weed, but they dont know about the coke && my driniing habits && I am afraid that they might disown me because coke was my fathers drug of choice too
I really really want to get myself back together again, but how do I convince my parents that I really DO want the help? They have sent my oldest sister to rehab several times with no luck. How do I say all of this to them without killing them inside?? I know I am babbling but I really want to help myself, I just dont want to tear my family apart…. What do I do?
My parents are unaware that I am being evicted && they also do not know that I already have 2 misdemeanors for posession of marijuana, so I will be dropping a huge bomb on them, I just dont know if they can handle another drug abusing kid…. I feel so horrible… Please any advice, I am looking to make myself better so please please serious answers only. Im not looking for your opinion on how I have lived my life, trust me, my own opinion of my life is much worse than yours.
If it makes any difference, I am 19 now. I moved out as soon as I turned 18 becaue I had a horrible relationship with my father && his new wife (who USED to be my babysitter & moms bestfriend till the affair was made public).