is that bad? This is my third pregnancy, and I’ve always been a heavy coffee drinker and since I’m not on my painkillers sleeping pills or my anti depressnts anymore (I had to go through a court ordered detox program at a rehab), I only get about two hours of sleep, which makes me have to drink even more coffee. sometimes, I go up to 50 hours without sleep. I have hallucinations all the time and sometimes I just get so angry that I want to stab my husband, when hes home, of course, because he is! never home and im sure that he is hgaving an affair but he wont accompany me to, the counseling, that I suggested we go to. im so sad and I dont even want to have this baby. uis there something wrong with? me? is this post partum depressan?